hospital

i didnt particularly feel like writing anything on this topic, but i figure that at some point later i’d want to remember, so i may as well log it in the journal. my grandma is in the hospital. she’s been there since last sunday, and the doctors all insist that her chances of making it are slim to none. i finally went to go see her saturday during the afternoon. i really dont think i was nearly prepared for everything that i saw. it was just utterly horrible to see someone, who i’ve cared about my whole life, in that kind of condition. it just seems so disgusting and wrong that someone who has been such a loving mother to her children and a caring grandmother could end up in such a condition. but i guess that’s the kind of fate we are all in for. my grandma is 90 some odd years old now, and time has it’s way of working on people. my family has been rotating shifts watching her at all times. my poor dad and aunt especially have spent countless hours in the hospital watching over my grandma. that night, i finally took a shift from midnight to 9am. let me tell ya. it wasn’t very fun. when you’re at home, at least you can sort of try to push things like this to the back of your mind… but when you’re there, there’s hardly anything else you can think off. *sigh*

-v