the other night i watched the movie “adaptation”. I really liked this movie for a variety of reasons and on many different levels. one of the things that really struck me about this movie was the thoughts that one of the characters, susan orlean, has about passion. susan is writing a book about orchids and is endlessly fascinated with how passionately some people feel about them. she confesses that in her life there is really nothing that she herself feels passionately about. she totally yearns to be able to actually feel passionately about something. it amazes her that there are people out there who will do virtually anything in order to acquire one of these rare plants and wishes that she too could have something in her life that she felt so strongly about.<\/p>\n
in a lot of ways i can totally relate to that feeling. i often wonder if i’m really getting what i want out of life. of course, the only way to know if i’m getting what i want, is to actually know just what is it that i want. and that’s the problem. i really dont know. i mean, sure, there are some things i kinda want. i have a variety of interests in different things.. and some of these things i get interested in for long periods of time, while others i can get interested only for a few days. i’m kinda into mountain biking, i (used to) collect records, i’m interested in art…. but i dont think i could really say that i’m very *passionate* about any of these things. i like my job, and in a lot of ways it can be pretty fun at times…. but i can’t say i *really really* love it.<\/p>\n
i couldn’t really say that i’m passionate about pretty much anything. and honestly, i’m pretty bummed about that. i really wish i had something that i was *intensely* interested in. something that i would constantly be excited about. i feel like everything that i do in my life ends up being a sort of half-assed attempt at it. i guess the one thing that i could say i really do feel very excited and passionate about is traveling. unfortunately traveling is something that i can only do once in a blue moon. at most i can take a long trip somewhere once a year… and even that probably isn’t too good of an idea. i really don’t know how my job will feel about me asking for 6 weeks off this winter. what if they say no? and i’m stuck here?<\/p>\n
so where does this leave me?? pretty much nowhere. like susan in the movie.. i want to feel passionately about something, but what can i do?? you can’t make yourself be excited about something. it’s not something you can just decide to just change in your life. either it’s there or it’s not.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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