The thing i really hate about keeping a journal is that i’m much too lazy and am too much of a procrastinator to have one. i always end up not writing for a couple of weeks at a time. then, when i finally get the urge to post something, i end up trying to post about everything exciting that’s occurred since i last posted. By the time i write all of that, i’m tired and bored and dont have the energy to post about what i originally wanted to post about. i kinda want this journal to be a recording of my day to day thoughts, feelings, and other stuff and not just a description of things i did. unfortunately i just cant pull myself out of this endless loop of procrastination, and when i write about the past, it’s really only easy to remember what occurred as opposed to events *and* thoughts and opinions. oh well…. anyways, here’s what’s happened in the last 2 weeks.
last weekend caryn and i drove up to Rocklin to visit her dad, step-mom, and brother. this was the first time that i would be meeting them and honestly i was hellza nervous. i really didnt know too much about them, and wasn’t sure what to expect. what if they didn’t like me for some reason? what if i ended up fucking up and making a bad impression? also, i’m usually super shy and quiet around strangers… so what if i just didnt have anything to say to them? ugh! since caryn lives fairly far from them, it didnt make much sense for us to just go up there for a quick dinner. instead we went up there to spend the night and hang out with them all day. yikes!!
well, surprisingly, everything went totally well. we got up there late on Friday night, chatted a bit, and since it was late, everyone went to sleep fairly soon (phew). the next day, her dad made a really good breakfast and then we just kicked it for the rest of the day. her family was hella nice and pretty easygoing. we spent most of the day there and i didnt make any crazy blunders. afterwards we also took her little brother bowling which was pretty fun. he’s a total superstar bowler who’s almost bowled a 300.
Saturday night we came back to my house cause my roommate Brandon was having a birthday party. he had only started inviting people to the party like 3 days before, so i thought the thing was gonna be a total flop. well, i thought totally wrong. fairly quickly the house was totally packed full of people. unfortunately i didnt know like 95 % of them, but overall the party was still fun. Brandon’s friends are pretty nuts. he passed out at the end of the night, and woke up later to find that someone had poured hot sauce all over his lips and smeared cake all over him. ew! one of his friends was actually a total bitch at the end of the night, but that’s to long of a story to go into here.
the weekend ended w/ a bbq at li’s house. li tried to kill us by feeding us raw chicken, but luckily caryn caught it just in time.
this weekend was Halloween. i always totally look forward to Halloween. it’s such a fun holiday. this year it happened to land on a Friday, which meant that critical mass was that day. joey and i rode in it and it was really cool. everyone was hella dressed up in costumes and stuff. afterwards, i picked up caryn from the airport and we went home to get dressed up. we then met up w/ joey, tom, jamie, Alex, jenny and some other people. we headed down to Castro. this year we heard that they wee totally cracking down there and that cops would be searching people and not allowing open containers of alcohol. because of that, we didnt actually go to the center of the castro area but instead just went to some bars and hung out there. of course, i heard later that people were totally not being searched and that open containers were totally fine. doh! unfortunately, my memory of that night is kinda hazy,. so there’s really not too much to report.
this morning, caryn, heather, and i took a flying trapeze class. dude, it was so crazy!!! after a quick 10 minute demonstration and practice on a low bar, they told us to just go for it. yikes!! so we made the long climb up to the platform, which was 25 feet above the ground. now, i’m *deathly* afraid of heights, so this was no easy feat for me. i was so damn freaked out the whole time up there. basically what we had to do was grab the trapeze, swing out, hook your knees on the bar you were swinging from, and then let go with your hands and swing hanging from just your knees. sheez. it was so crazy to be doing all this so high up in the air (over a *huge* net and with safety harnesses of course though). then you swing your body back up, grab the bar, unhook your knees, and then drop down into the net. caryn and heather managed to get it on the first try, but i wasn’t able to hook my knees till my second time. heh, no matter how many times i climbed that ladder, it was so freaky each time.
the next thing we had to try was to do a catch. we would do the same thing as before, except that there would be an instructor swinging on another trapeze in front of us, after hooking the bar w/ just our knees, we were supposed to swing out, grab the instructors arms, and let go w/ your feet and just swing out being held by the instructor. caryn, being a total superstar, got this on her first try. i totally fucked up my first try. on the second try, i hooked my legs correctly but just narrowly missed holding on to the instructor. damn. SO CLOSE! but then the lesson was over and i didnt get to try it again. now, as i write this, the palms of my hands are totally sore from the lesson and so are my legs. i’m definitely so glad that i did it though. such a rush!!
-v