… cause the ride is a bit too insane now.
adjusting has been weird. i can’t quite put my finger on it… but something is definitely just not right. it feels strange to be home. and not just in a “awwww man, it sucks to be at work again” way… but more in a listless, lethargic, and unhappy way. you know the feeling you sometimes get after E, where the world just doesnt seem right anymore, and there’s nothing in particular bothering you, but at the same time nothing is good?
i guess that’s kind of what i’ve been feeling like for the last few days. then, today, i was talking to someone who i’ve been really close to for hellza years and found out some totally insane news that shocked me beyond belief. i wont post about it here, but let’s just say, that the rest of my day has been spent in a weird haze. i just dont know how to react, think, or feel about it. coming back has been surreal enough and now all of a sudden something fully unpredictable has occurred and everything seems even more unbelievable and unreal.
life is so…. confusing.
-v
Look on the bright side… you have a job, you just came back with some incredible memories that will last a lifetime, you have friends that adore you and it won’t be long before you embark on your next adventure. 🙂
Then again, what the fuck do I know? I have no job and haven’t been on an awesome vacation. heh
I say quit your job (get relocated if you can) and take off to another country and work there for a year. More and more people are doing it and I can see why.
definitely. i mean, i totally agree. honestly.. i have *nothing* to complain about. my vacation was dope, and honestly my job is cake. i make my own schedule, work from home 2 times a week, and get paid very well. like i said…. the way i’ve been feeling is pretty illogical and i really dont know why i am so bummed. yeah, it’s annoying to have to go back to work, but i really dont think it should affect me this much. honestly… i’m thinking this might be from the jetlag. maybe i just feel so physically drained and tired that it’s fucking with me. *sigh*
-v
Nah dood, I can see how it would affect you. I mean you’ve been gone forever and had an amazing experience. You’ve left the ills of the real world and discovered what life truly has to offer. I would think anyone would feel that way. Life is too short to be spent slaving every single day to survive. Humans aren’t meant to live the way we have too. It’s something that has been bugging me for a long time now. Here I am, with this wonderful gift and opportunity to experience everything life has to offer, but instead we are forced to live every day working only to go home tired and stressed, then to bed only to wake to do it again. And we are giving two days out of the week for ourselves. It simply isn’t enough. If only I could win the lottery, then I could give all those crappy stresses up and experience life the way it should be.
And I think going to Thailand, where things are so much simpler, you got a really good picture of life outside of the monotiny of the business world. A much simpler and happier lifestyle.
Hey, kiddo, I think you’re probably right about the jet lag thing. The brain and emotions just don’t work right when they’re utterly exhausted, and you haven’t really had a chance to get your bearings since you got back. Everything feels ten times worse when you’re utterly exhausted… you’ll feel better soon!