Category: San Francisco

i finally decided to open my mail. i think i’ve only opened like 3 or 4 pieces of mail since i got back from thailand 4 and a half months ago. the stack has been growing and growing and was up to 82 various bills, late fees, parking tickets, bank statements, and other shite. it was a serious pain in the ass to go through all of it, but thank god i went through it when i did! amongst other stuff, i found:

my insurance card which i’ll need for tomorrows doctor’s appt.
a letter notifying me of a court date next week that i didnt know about.
a final “last 10 days notice” to pay ucsf medical before they report me to collections.

what perfect timing. if i had waited any longer to open my mail, i would have been hellza screwed!

-v

when i first moved to SF just over a year ago, i was so excited to be living here. i totally wanted to take in everything that the city had to offer. i was constantly digging through different websites trying to find new bars to visit, new restaurants to eat at, and events to go to. the city was was full of surprises and new things to explore. as time went on however, i started exploring less and less and became content to just get stuck in a routine and do the same things over and over. i’ve eaten at the places near my house probably a billion times now. when i need something to do for fun i usually resort to going to a weekly i’ve already attended or checking the same old bars i’ve gone to in the past.

i think i really need to start exploring again. SF has so much to offer. there is constantly something new and exciting going on. galleries are showing new art collections, movie theaters are playing new hard to find indie films, plays that i’ve never seen before are coming to town, and random spontaneous events are springing up everywhere. gotta start taking advantage of it all…

caryn flew away today to hawaii. she’s gonna be gone for 2 months. *sigh*.

it’s gonna be rough not seeing her for that long. but, despite everything, i’m hella glad that she gets a chance to do something fun and exciting like working in a tropical paradise. it’s funny how when you *really* love someone, you totally want what’s best for them, even if it sucks for you. i think it’s pretty damn cool that humans are capable of feeling that way.

-v

the other night i watched the movie “adaptation”. I really liked this movie for a variety of reasons and on many different levels. one of the things that really struck me about this movie was the thoughts that one of the characters, susan orlean, has about passion. susan is writing a book about orchids and is endlessly fascinated with how passionately some people feel about them. she confesses that in her life there is really nothing that she herself feels passionately about. she totally yearns to be able to actually feel passionately about something. it amazes her that there are people out there who will do virtually anything in order to acquire one of these rare plants and wishes that she too could have something in her life that she felt so strongly about.

in a lot of ways i can totally relate to that feeling. i often wonder if i’m really getting what i want out of life. of course, the only way to know if i’m getting what i want, is to actually know just what is it that i want. and that’s the problem. i really dont know. i mean, sure, there are some things i kinda want. i have a variety of interests in different things.. and some of these things i get interested in for long periods of time, while others i can get interested only for a few days. i’m kinda into mountain biking, i (used to) collect records, i’m interested in art…. but i dont think i could really say that i’m very *passionate* about any of these things. i like my job, and in a lot of ways it can be pretty fun at times…. but i can’t say i *really really* love it.

i couldn’t really say that i’m passionate about pretty much anything. and honestly, i’m pretty bummed about that. i really wish i had something that i was *intensely* interested in. something that i would constantly be excited about. i feel like everything that i do in my life ends up being a sort of half-assed attempt at it. i guess the one thing that i could say i really do feel very excited and passionate about is traveling. unfortunately traveling is something that i can only do once in a blue moon. at most i can take a long trip somewhere once a year… and even that probably isn’t too good of an idea. i really don’t know how my job will feel about me asking for 6 weeks off this winter. what if they say no? and i’m stuck here?

so where does this leave me?? pretty much nowhere. like susan in the movie.. i want to feel passionately about something, but what can i do?? you can’t make yourself be excited about something. it’s not something you can just decide to just change in your life. either it’s there or it’s not.

i posted the other day about getting pulled over for not having my car registered and that a cop told me that legally they have the right to tow my car if they see it parked anywhere. well, today that happened. i went to get my car and it was gone. towed. FUCK. that makes 4 times in the last year. *sigh*. i guess the cops are going way out of their way these days to fulfill their quota of parking tickets and other fines since the department’s budget is really low.

so, once again (after kicking it at the dmv for about an hour) i get to go down to the Hall of Justice. Calling it the hall of justice just sounds so ridiculous…. it makes me expect superman or aquaman to be hanging out there or something. ugh.

-v

my friend liv got married over the weekend. her actual wedding was super small and hardly anyone was invited, but she had a big party to celebrate on saturday. of course, liv can’t do anything conventionally, so everyone that went was supposed to dress as a fairy. i had no clue what a guy would need to wear if he was going she expected from guys was something simple like a green shimmery shirt. of course, i don’t have a shirt like that, but luckily i was able to borrow one from patrick… and then spent the whole evening having people make jokes about the shirt i was wearing. but other than that, the night was hella fun. it was cool to see everyone dressed up, and to hang out with a lot of peeps who i havent really hung out w/ much in a while.

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last week our landlord came by to tell us that they were going to do work on the pipes coming out of our house and so they needed to shut the water off. unfortunately they weren’t able to do whatever work they needed to do, so they had to postpone this till the following week. well, this week when they came by, they rang our doorbell many many times but no one answered so they assumed nobody was home. well, that wasn’t the case, and when they had taken apart the pipes, i guess trent used the toilet upstairs and our landlord got drenched with…. ummmm… stuff. heh.

-v

i’m a *tiny* bit behind on paying my car registration. ok, maybe it’s not exactly a tiny bit. kind of more like six and a half months. i keep meaning to pay it… but unfortunately it hasn’t happened yet. today i was driving on the freeway and noticed this cop following me for a while. crap. luckily, for once, i am driving well below the posted speed limit. as the cop keeps following me, a car proceeds to miss its exit, and does this totally illegal maneuver to cut over to the exit. at this point the cops lights turn on… but instead of pulling over the driver who cut me off and was driving totally recklessly, the cop pulls me over to give out a ticket for registration. *sigh*. also, it turns out that legally they are allowed to tow my car away after my registration has been expired for 6 months. “i wouldn’t park your car on any public streets if i was you. you might come back and find your car to be missing” doh!

-v